sometimes i think i want to fast forward through this. through the hard stuff. through the mix of anger then tears then anger then tears then depression that just won’t go away. 

but then i think: this is what defines us as humans. that we can connect so intimately with one another and then just watch it wash away. it’s how we see ourselves, and how we view ourselves through other people’s eyes. the way you treat someone you once loved and now lost provides the definition for who you are.